Skip to main content

Ibuprofen: a love letter

The problem with my feet started out as, "that's odd" but by today had become, "what the FUCK - I'm hobbling down Clapham high street, CRYING" having gradually taken on the flavour of "I really should do something about this..." over the course of the last month. Now that I was struggling to walk,  and having been deterred by the £130 it would cost me to spend an hour with the local podiatrist, I finally went to my GP today.

She was nice - like, really nice. Not "I want to lick you" nice, but some doctors are so jaded that they can barely muster the energy to listen to your complaint and mostly just advise you to make another appointment (with their colleague) if it hasn't cleared up/gone down/stopped burning in a fortnight. To be fair, most GPs find me quite exciting: end-stage renal failure is more interesting than gastroenteritis I suppose, but I wasn't even wearing my renal hat today and still the doctor was friendly, attentive and very energetic despite probably having sat through a morning's worth of ear-ache and hypercondria already. She heartily agreed with my self-Google diagnosis of inflammation of the tendons and advised rest and "suitable footwear" (I'm NOT wearing hiking boots, as suggested by a podiatrist with whom I spoke on the phone) before prescribing a great thwack of anti-inflammatory Ibuprofen, topped up with paracetamol as and when needed.

I was nervous about taking pain medication on a regular basis: I don't want to get hooked, I'm not a celebrity. Also, I'm quite...let's say slight of frame, and too much pain medication can send me a bit loopy - taking Tramadol feels like I've died and gone to heaven, and heaven is Dermot O'Leary's hot-tub. But the lovely doctor assured me I'd be fine - and she was right. I have only taken one of the giant, hot-pink tablets so far but they are marvellous. The pain has practically disappeared, and having had it for a month, this is no small achievement. I am hooked up to Dermot as I write (do one, Dermy - there's a new physiological complaint in town) but I am super stoked to stand up and get my walk ooown when this session comes to an end.

In other news: my building got burgled - which was shit - but I had doubled locked my front door - which was good. I am currently stressing about my 5,000 word case study but it is due in on my birthday so my 27th will be licence - nay, mandate - to celebrate. I am mired in job anxiety, as in: I-have-a-shit-one-and-no-money-and-I-want-a-better-one, but I have to keep reminding myself that until my essay is polished off, job-hunting will have to wait. The problem is, now that my career is no longer dictated by my dialysis regime, I am growing more and more frustrated that it is not going in the right direction and I am not very patient. I am also very poor, and bottles of St Tropez Gradual Tanning Fair to Medium don't grow on trees. However, every journey begins with a single step, and now I can take mine, pain-free.
Just to give you a bit of scale....if Infernos made pain meds

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

Postscript

You wouldn't believe where I am. You could guess, if you've seen the gratuitous images of my self-satisfied gurning face in front of an infinity pool on Facebook...otherwise you might find it hard to imagine the paradise in which I currently find myself. I am in Dubai. Bar Abby Clancey and the cast of TOWIE, is is not everyone's idea of paradise - it actually wasn't mine. It is exciting, exotic and fucking hot, but the skyscrapers and traffic, the desert and cultural  deficiency (not to mention the chavs that clutter up the Ritz Carlton these days, I mean honestly...) suggest you'd be hard-pushed to call it paradise. It is vaulted to utopian heights simply because, four-months after the transplant, I am here. My nearest and dearest suffered for seven years as I dreamily aired my wanderlust. Yet the reward of a post-transplant holiday seemed too extravagant a prize for which to yearn - wasn't a life free from dialysis enough? Wasn't having a drink when t...

Moving on

My 1st post from my new digs! And I can't think of a better way to spend a fiver than on 24 hours worth of internet (so this might be the first and last post for a while...) As moves go - and I have done three now - it was incredibly straight-forward. With the help of Scottie (the Man who came with The Van), my brother (the older - younger had absconded to Birmingham for as yet unknown purposes) and Maisy (more on her later) I loaded up said Van in less than an hour then drove down to Clapham with ma bru (I have been watching Blood Diamond again) and un-pakced said Van in a remarkable twenty-minute burst, ably assisted by Adam and James who had no excuse as they can see my front door from theirs. I say "I" loaded The Van: I was actually summarily dismissed as too weakly to do more than shift boxes seven inches through the french windows. It was in fact Maisy who did most of the first-leg hard graft: she returned from her nineteenth trip to The Van to report that Scott...

Run

I decide to go for a run. I decide to go because when I undress in front of the mirror all I see is my rotund belly and bulbous thighs. I grab at them and pull, as though I am trying to rip off the chunks of flesh. This, in contrast to the tired, dry skin on my face, etched with deep lines like carvings in rock. It has not recovered from the eighteen months when it was not nourished, but elsewhere fat is sprouting. I lace my trainers tightly. I don't know the time, I have stopped wearing a watch. I start running, and soon I am fleeing. It feels good: I haven't been able to run recently - thwarted by low blood pressure. Every rusty muscle is in movement, together, sliding back and forth in tandem and I feel slow but I feel fluid. I pull up from my core. I think I am the best runner you will see today because once I watched a tutorial on YouTube with Paula Radcliffe. I run alongside the common, not on the grass; I prefer the solidity of the ground, the heaviness that rises ...